“I’m too weak to do anything right now. I know, that it’s in my blood, to underperform, no matter what I do.
People laugh. People laugh, and then, they move on. But, It doesn’t stop there.
They share it there, with more and more like-minded people. Nothing more or less can ever be expected.
My dreams aren’t perfect. I always die in the end of it. Change is inevitable. But, there are no signs.
I see nothing but darkness in broad daylight. I need rehabilitation. But, I’m the only one suffering from it.
So, I see that there’s nothing in this world which can eradicate whatever that is lurking deep inside me.
Are you the pain of my life? Or, are you the failure altogether? It wouldn’t be surprising if you just say –
‘Don’t worry, we’re just playing with your life and extracting the best out of you. It will not take much time.’
Who are you? It doesn’t matter if you don’t reply. I just want you to stay away from me.
It is truly embarrassing. People aren’t pointing out at my mistakes. They’re just laughing, and fading away.
I’ve tried to catch them. But, they’re already aware of the escape routes. This game isn’t funny anymore.
Everything is staged. The script is already written. But, you don’t get to choose your favourite role.
You’re programmed to dance to the tunes. You either dance, or make way for others. Things are irrelevant.”
You’re below average. So, hands up! You’re arrested.
I can’t afford to love
But, I’d like to tell you
That sooner or later, I’ll be gone
Forever after.
Oh god! So much of pain!! I hope you’re ok!
Be happy.. let them laugh, let them go, let them do whatever they want.. don’t give the remote control of your emotions to them. They are no one to control that. You’re the in charge of your life.. do whatever makes you happy and leave the rest.. ok!
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Oh, thank you so much, Ria!
Thank you, for going through the lines, and for the words you used to console me.
I’m happy right now.
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Great! Always be happy.. keep writing..
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I will! Thank you!
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Nice !!
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Thank you!
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I say to the protagonist, “You’re not the only one suffering from it. This environment has become toxic. The only thing we can do is wear a face mask, and block out the poison. They rate you based on their own criteria of worldly success. Don’t fall prey to their rating system. What matters in the end is what you believe and how you rate yourself. Your human mind and spirit is able to constantly evolve, so there’s no such thing as below average, just one path leading to Infinity. It doesn’t matter where you are on it, as long as you keep walking forward.”
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You’re right!
The protagonist is currently receiving treatment, in order to stay alive and kicking. Don’t worry, he’ll be alright.
Thank you so much for being nice and kind!
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I wish I could help him further. Unfortunately, I seem to be facing the same difficulties.
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That’s so nice of you to be concerned about other people.
Good things are around the corner. Let’s get to them, together!
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‘Everything is staged. The script is already written. But, you don’t get to choose your favourite role’
This line hit deep. But I guess what we make of the role given to us also shows our fighting spirit. Our want to live. It may not be our favourite, but if we take it positively, it may provide us the road to the role of our life and choice.
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Yes! That’s it. That’s the best thing we can do to make our lives better. We’ve to fight until the end.
Thank you so much!
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Gosh, that’s beautiful. Loved it through and through. :’)
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Thank you so much!
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Wow dark and meaningful.
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Thank you for reading the post!
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We are all sufferers at some point or the other in life but when other’s arw in that situation we are least bothered to console but when it strikes on us that’s when we feel the agony….
So don’t be judgemental and show and seek help where ever required and allow leeway to yourself and others 😊
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Yeah, you’re right. Judging at tough times can go wrong. This is just an attempt to exaggerate my feelings through words. I don’t take things seriously. Actually, I play it my way.
Thank you for your kind words here. Thank you so much.
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Most Welcome….
Keep it up Pavan, good you take things in your stride 😊
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I’m so glad to hear from you! Thank you so much, Fariha!
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Hello buddy, are you okay?
This was truly heartfelt.
Just wanted to assure you that you are a lot more than what you feel right now. Give yourself sometime. Know that it is okay to take a break and figure life out.
Find what gets you going
It is out there
Don’t stop looking🌸
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Thank you for your advice.
I feel alright now. I just wanted to pour my feelings onto something. So, here it is. I’ll look for more. I’m sure about that.
Thank you so much for your time here, Shreya! Have a great day/night!
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I can totally relate!
Pouring my heart out on paper is one of the best feelings ever!
Good to hear that man🌸
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That’s true!
I felt really good after reading your comments here. It cheered me up.
Thank you, buddy!
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Wow. You’re truly a master at putting down such pensive thoughts. 👏
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Oh, thank you so much for the compliments! I’m so glad to hear from you!
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So nicely you have written this.
I hope you’re ok now.
And yes I agree that judging at tough times can go wrong.
Be happy and keep sharing😊
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Thank you! Thank you so much.
I will, for sure!
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😊
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Toxicity is everywhere these days and it pisses me off a lot… Instead of helping you get on your feet, people will knock you down over and over again, till you stand up to them and tell them that they don’t matter. Reality’s harsh but in a way, it’s good because I’ve learned from insecure people i.e. haters, never to ruin my image of myself. I mean, those people probably lack something but at least I can look at myself and be grateful for everything that I have and be grateful that I’m not like those miserable people. I don’t want to be eighty years old and look at myself in the mirror and think, ‘What a waste. You just gave others power over you? For what exactly?’ In short, regret’s brutal.
These feelings are horrible and it’s rough but always remember that you have the power to change your thoughts and eventually, your life. Your reality is what you make it out to be. Be grateful for the little things, love everything and everyone and fill your heart with compassion and care for the world. There’s nothing greater than somebody who gives everything that they are to the world to make it better. You can do that.
Also, chin up, my friend. You’re stronger than you think and there’s no need to deny that, because it’s the truth. You just got to start believing it from within.
Earlier today, someone described me as a ‘walking, talking self-help book’ and I laughed and jokingly said, ‘I love what I do’. So yeah, reach out if you ever need to. Take care!
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Oh, thank you, Mvadi! I’m refreshed after reading your comment here, on this post. I’m doing well now. I just wanted to express what I felt and see what could happen if I did. The results were amazing. It calmed me down. Writing calms me down. I’m alright now. I can assure you that. Yes, I’d love to reach out! Thank you so much.
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You’re very welcome, my friend. I’m glad my comment helped you feel slightly better. Writing truly has been one of my best ways of expressing myself in the past couple of years and I’m grateful to have a platform to honestly express how I feel, like you. It calms me down a lot too actually! We’re pretty similar in that way. It’s great that you’re fine now. Sure, anytime!
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Wow, this was so powerful. I really like the way you write. Please keep up the good work, you’re amazing! 🙂
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Thank you so much! I’ll try to keep up. Oh, I will! Thank you, again.
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“Everything is staged. The script is already written. But, you don’t get to choose your favorite role.” — I wish we acknowledge this soon… We are creating a script within a script.. So choices are infinite.. It just that we are not that good at creating this from scratch :-).. I hope you understand
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Yeah. That’s true. I get it.
That post was written when my mind was low on enthusiasm. I wasn’t feeling better. But, I felt better after bulldozing all the unwanted stuff out of my brain.
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Great… That’s what I do to make it clear 😊
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Beautiful lines, I can feel the pain in words you have faced at that moment. Dear friend, darkness won’t last long, it just plays for a moment making pictures of different colors and will pass, but the light through which you see those pictures is in you ever, just see it in you and recognize it and it will be there always…stay blessed and happy 🙂
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Thank you for all the advice you’ve given me. Thank you for going through the write-up! Let’s stay blessed and happy!
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yes dear 🙂
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I also relate to this pavan..but don’t bother abt anybody..nobody has right to rule our life..jst be enough strong that nobody can alter your state of mind..n always remember that I’m here for you..you can share anything with me..god bless you n keep smiling😊🤗
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Thank you for being there for me whenever I need you! I’m so happy now. May God bless you too. Have a great day/night!
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Same to you pavu🤗
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You write so well so cant be below average .Some talents remain latent undiscovered .
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Thank you so much for appreciating me. Yes, I agree! You’re right!
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You’re below average , So, hands up! You’re arrested…This is incredibly amazing…Your writing skills are out of this world, I just felt instantly connected with every single word of yours. Too good.. More power to you.
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Thank you so much, Rameen. I’m going through your blog at the moment and I find it to be captivating. I’ll get back to you once I’m done! Thank you!
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My pleasure pavan, i will be looking forward to your future writings. And thank you so much for visiting my blog. I’m so glad that you find it captivating.
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You write really well! That’s what I found out. Happy blogging!
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Thank you so much for your feedback. It really means alott.
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You’re welcome! Have a great day/night!
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Wow !! Ur post literally describe my current situation !! Thank you so much for this lovely writing ! I am reading it again n again ❤❤
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I’m so surprised to hear that people are finding the post to be similar to that of their lives. But, I think that you’re okay. Have a great day/night! Thank you for reading it.
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Well !! Life is unfair …n people face these kinda problems..! Especially the student life !! U have very well depicted the feelings n pain ! I quite understand it ! Jus stay blessed n wishing u all the sorts of happiness in ur life ! 😊😊
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Yes! That’s life. I hope you’re doing well. You too, stay blessed and do whatever brings happiness to you. Thank you so much!
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I am pretty much fine . N all thanks to u ! It was really such a lovely read ❤
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I could connect to each and every line you wrote.
If you could write something so deep then you need to rethink the thought
“Are you average”?
It was fabulous…
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Well, I’m flattered!
Thank you so much for stopping by.
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I never do things for flattery.
You could have taken it as an compliment.
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Well, in a positive way.
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Oh, I’m sorry. I was a bit busy back then. Thank you so much for reading my posts. I really appreciate it. Please don’t be mad! I meant it differently.
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